P-10


The Seventh Working
   [Thursday, Jan. 8, 1914 e.v.]
   Hitherto, so far as we are aware, nothing great of the result of the
operation of Juppiter is obtained. Yet tonight I feel more confidence than
usual: I am in a highly nervous or electric state. My cold was better, and I
went on a fairly long walk and dined out. Am tired, excited, feverish: I think a
slight relapse. Juppiter bring all to a good end.
   The Temple opened about 10:00; the Rite being done ut ordinatur we beheld an
universe of the most brilliant purple with golden stars, and Juppiter seated on
His throne surrounded by the 4 Beasts upon thick clouds borne upon a phalanx of
eagles.
   In the Book LXV, Chap. V, we find the passage 9 or 10 -- 8-13. Subsequently
there appeared a great Peacock, meaning (according to Fra. L.T.) Change-
Journeys-Motion-Excitement-Improvement-? Some word unknown. (LHIKMOPILV.) The
Peacock is now crowned, and regards himself in a mirror. This word is summarized
in ``Breaking'' i.e. of all old conditions. Fra. L.T. connects this with the
word of Equinox of Libra An IX. The Temple was closed about 11:20.
   Received several visitors; the Art-Bachelor W.D., the fair Damozel J.C. and
the good knight my brother-in-arms Sir Lionel. Sculptured a sacred Phallus till
nigh 2:00.
   4:15 a.m. Die Venerii.
   A wonderful and repeated dream. I wake up, at last able to get down the truth
I have long seen. Aelfrida Tillyard the beloved disciple and one ``Clairbelle''
(Lady Walkoskie) figure in it.
   ``Mental images leave no trace when destroyed''. Conservation of matter and
energy are not paralleled by thought (I had kept on reducing symbols to the
Lingam and the Yoni and thence destroying them, much to the expressed wonder and
alarm of Ae.T.) Of course the L. and Y. are only convenient standards of
reduction: the point is that illusions destroyed leave no trace or effect, but
merely vanish. As this process becomes general in one's life, it really
diminishes one's universe. The bourgeois is subconsciously aware that this must
result, and is therefore right in his own way in refusing to destroy even one
illusion, and in persecuting those who shatter them. Also there is only one
right path; to either side leads not merely off, but to the abyss. I remember in
my dream mimicking the bourgeois a-tiptoe marking time, trembling and blind.
This idea was also presented in many other ways, intensely vivid, which now I
forget.
   Moreover as I wake myself thoroughly by writing this note, the lens of my
intellectuasl comprehension of the great truth seems to dim, and I find myself
fearing lest in the morning I should find the words obscure. ``The destruction
of mental images is the only possible annihilation'' is my dream-idea.
``(Destroyed) mental images leave no trace'' is close to, if not quite, the
wording. My contrast with matter and energy (set forth above) was a waking
rational comment.
   I remember catching up an old felt hat, and explaining to Ae.T., Saraswati,
the beloved disciple, that it was only to be destroyed by first perceiving it as
a disguise for the Yoni -- I think the dream ran thus. But much I fail to
recapture.
   Let me sleep again, and may the Holy One give again (if it be His will) to
His beloved in sleep.
   9:30
   The post has brought 3 things of the nature of Juppiter: a letter from my
lawyers, a pot of opium, and a love-poem of a religious type (Chicago May) Some
readers may boggle at the attribution, but they are dull.