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[v_ Monday_]  January 14,  1918  [e.v.]

   12.10  a.m.
      While with The Lady of Our Dreams I had a
vision of Myself being a spreading candlestick with
thirteen candles. Over each flame was the opening of a
tube which could hold water as a fountain. These
tubes met the flame in a throbbing vibration which
became almost excruciating when suddenly the part of
the candlestick above the stem or staff, broke off and
became a crown. The crown floated in the air tilted at
a slight angle and a circle which was a halo came
down from heaven and dropped into the crown. In the
center a wand came and then it all hovered above the
candlestick with a veil round it. The veil in some ways
appeared as rays of light. After I told this vision
T[herion] talked a long while about the number 93;
how adepts were tested when they brought messages;
and how messages had been sent to him through the
Scarlet Woman.
      I had another vision of myself being thirteen naked
women lying in a row and all being caressed at one
time. When I told this to T., in a somewhat indirect
manner, he suggested that I see if I could get any
messages through visions or otherwise.
      I began by asking for a vision containing a message.
I first heard gurgling water and saw a dark farmhouse
in among trees and green fields. The house and other
things disappeared and a dark yoni appeared just where
the house had stood. I then asked where will a message
come from? Immediately soldiers with guns appeared
lounging about the place and a king on a throne
where the house had stood. I then asked again for a
message and saw an egg in which were many many
tiny convolutions of some flesh-like substance which
would form something. The egg was placed in an
oblong as in a picture. Around it were clouds, trees,
mountains and water, called the `four elements'. A
camel appeared in front of the whole picture. I next
tried to find out who the king was. He looked more
like Prof. Shotwell than any one else. That is, he was
`simple, democratic' and very learned and fine. He was
certainly not a king belonging to any kingdom limited
by a country's borders, but was a king of men, or a
king of the world. I asked his name and the word
`Ham' appeared between the egg in the oblong and the
soldiers around the king.*


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   The king went out to one side and a wizard linked
his arm in the king's as they disappeared. The wizard
looked at me significantly as they left. It was a sort of
look as if one would almost wink. He was an old man,
with gray beard, dressed in a long black gown. He was
infinitely wise. They seemed to go to a cave in the
base of a low mountain on the shore of a large body of
water. A spring of sparkling cool water bubbled up
through a barrel near the mouth of the cave. I went
into the cave and saw them doing something mys
terious with a revolver. The wizard had the revolver.
What they were going to do was a joke of some kind,
but the wizard looked grim about it. At T.'s suggestion
I went up to them and said, ``I am Eve.'' This seemed
to stop everything. They both disappeared with the
cave. Very soon I saw the king sitting in a niche
covered with a canopy, cut in the side of the mountain.
In quite another place the wizard was sitting under a
tree fanning himself. At T.'s suggestion I went up to
him and asked him his name. I became very frightened
and had the same sensation as when I spoke to him in
the cave. It was a kind of shyness and awe. He only
smiled at me and would not speak. It seemed that I
did not know enough for him to speak with me. In
order for him to say anything to me I should have to
build a fire of sticks, which he showed me how to do.
There was a baby in some way connected with the act
of my building the fire which was like a ritual. Then a
most beautiful lion was standing by the fire. The
wizard was standing and still held one or two sticks in
his hand. He smiled and said, ``Child.'' I then saw a
most beautiful naked boy 5 or 6 years old dancing and
playing in the woods in front of us. T. asked how he
would look dressed and when I saw him in conven
tional clothes he looked very uncomfortable and
repressed. He looked as if he should be dressed in
skins such as tigers'. To one side near the place where
I made the fire was a large turtle standing up as a
penguin stands.
      The wizard was very happy and satisfied looking.
He sat down and reached out his hand to me and had
me sit down beside him. As we watched the boy he
put his left arm around me tenderly and placed my
head on the left side of his chest near the shoulder.
      He said, ``It's all in the egg.''
   _The End._