Magickal Reveries Dedicated to Bill Heidrick ...who opened the door... I am as the Moon Our Light is ever changing Healing, gathering copyright, Hugh Read, 1987 Permission is herby given for noncommercial reproduction of this copyrighted work, so long as it is reproduced in full and this notice is included. page 2 As Capricorn begins the year darkly From the depths of light As the distant Sun Begins Her Northward Path Saturn begins her leaden rainbow dance Giving form to time The Gates to Formlessness Make way for new forms To emerge out of Saturnian Black Gates of Formlessness Are now used by wise souls Seeking Endlessness As new forms dance in, wise souls may dance out To Eternity To explore timeless states And spaceless being Saturn planet of time and timelessness Space and spacelessness Of limits and freedom Is our leaden key To the golden place of immortality The Bliss of Saturn Is sweet, rich bliss, indeed In dark Capricorn page 3 Agape is subtle wine, holy...pure While Chubby Eros Is a belching beer Good old, sad old lust Is Thelema will with desire charged Is Thelema greed Drunk on yeasty-rich lust Rapine in her heart Or is Thelema subtle will, divine Heaven's Spirit scent Beyond sight, will or mind Like good Christian Faith page 4 As Capricorn begins the year darkly From the depths of light As the distant Sun Begins Her Northward Path Saturn begins her leaden rainbow dance Giving form to time The Gates to Formlessness Make way for new forms To emerge out of Saturnian Black Gates of Formlessness Are now used by wise souls Seeking Endlessness As new forms dance in, wise souls may dance out To Eternity To explore timeless states And spaceless being Saturn planet of time and timelessness Space and spacelessness Of limits and freedom Is our leaden key To the golden place of immortality The Bliss of Saturn Is sweet, rich bliss, indeed In dark Capricorn page 5 Isis spread your loving wings over me Enfold me within Protect me, Mother, In my loneliness Isis spread your loving wings over me Enfold me within Lead me to earthly love Lead me to my Self Isis spread your loving wings over me Enfold me within Surround me with lovers Who heal me with love Isis spread your loving wings over me Enfold me within Allow me loving friends Who heal me with love Isis spread your loving wings over me Enfold me within Lead me to earthly love Lead me to my Self page 6 When bright spark was struck at dark equinox Hard clarity came As Sun struck Saturn In His Earthy home The Astral Year begins in Saturn's house In chill mystery The leaden wheel begins Her twelve month circle From Earth to Air to Water to Fire Then again begin Spinning wheel of magick Through time and through space Twelve stations of the Elemental Cross Break the calender Wear tattered calender Like torn beggar's rags Twelve mundane months slip over Heaven's Year Solstice to solstice Tearing the paper year With ancient power Now the dark solstice has come and has gone Year is born anew New Year's day ahead Surly overlay Vying with our more ancient starry year The New Roman Year Trys hard to hide the Gods Nor can it hide them For their power is born ever anew Through the twelve stations And deep in each month Their Life births Magick page 7 As Virgo dies the dark Crone encroaches Hard with Grey Power Harsh-shrivelled with Wisdom Of a long chaste life What seems to be ugly, mean grows in strength Like a walnut shell Wrinkled shell, wrinkled nut Wrinkled wise, old brain Cruel Death mercifully releases Beauty Libra roses rise Gentle Autumn breezes Pink, red, soft petals page 8 From peak to craggy peak the Horn'd One leaps Fire in his eyes Hard shouldered...white-hot chest Antlered man on high Blue lightening flashes from his bright-hot thighs Swift knees crash through trees In the ancient forest Of my ancient mind From those depths my ancient powers rise Fire in my eyes Soft heart hardens. Wisdom Surges in my thighs Knees and ankles loosen, muscles tighten I am the Horn'd One! I am He! I am Free! Ancient One in me! Affirmation: I am Pan! I am Cernunnos! I am the Horn'd One. I am Shiva! I am He! I am Atman! I am Free! page 9 Is Peace possible on Battlefield Earth No. Not now, Kali Your Yuga demands War War is our teacher Only through War can we learn to escape Your prison of Time The only Peace there is Is hidden within Each individual heart. Turn within Make that your War Exploit the Battlefield By turning away That is War enough in Kali's prison Of Time and of Space Learn to reverse the Field And find your own Peace page 10 WHEN SATURN RULED AQUARIUS The Kiss of Saturn is hot, black, fierce, deep A hint of Wild Ass In her blue-black hair Breasts soft as black Lead Moulten hips steaming with empowerment Belly bold with Lust That heals...and heals...and heals Uranus! She cries. "Wild Ass!" I reply. "I am set on you!" My Wild Ass prances "For I am Set, my Nepthys My sweet Wild Ass I come to claim your dark powers tonight In Binah tonight For we are in Binah Deep set in Binah Saturn am I! Shivah am I! I AM! I am Atman! THAT! I claim you Dark Nepthys THAT we may be ONE!" page 11 In Atman hide the Secrets of Maya Terrible Maya (When we are in Her Claws) Is kind in Atman There is a reversal in Atman Of subtle beauty Maya becomes God's Will And I am as God In Atman. I am as God, Will Supreme Soft as a Feather Strong, gentle, wise and firm, Free! I am Atman! I am Atman. I am Free. I am He. In Atman, I AM As God in Atman. Free! I am Atman! page 12 SCARABEUS Golden Fire in my Heart, Immortal! Dark Sacred Beetle Flaming in my breast! Immortality Hidden in the dung of my existence! That filthy dung I roll across my Sky For all to distain Hides The Stone of the Wise from prying eyes And the Mid-night Sun Hidden by dung-like Earth Yet lighting the Moon Hides behind my life lighting up my Soul As I roll my dung Making Soul immortal As I roll my Stone page 13 I met Minerva just now near her tree Resting from battle Her helmet on her knee Hair tumbled on breasts Parted by brass, surrounded by steel plate Dark nipples glistened With dew-like sweat of war Pale arms quivering Eager for battle's harsh life-death embrace Yes! She said to me. Hell yes! she said. Get laid! Enter the battle. My Virgins serve me well, my son! Get laid! Let your juices flow! (She spit an olive pit) Get in there and fight! She gathered her pale skirts around her hips Stood, covering strong thighs Took her shield, sword, helmet With war shriek was gone page 14 LOVE IS THE LAW Do what thou wilt is the Whole of the Law The time of The Will Bursts forth Now, in the Spring Implacable bud! Let your Love burst forth and blossom freely Thunder of roses Unfettered by harsh will Love willed to be Free To soar with on Her Wings into New Heavens Over pure New Earths Love is Will purified Love is Her own Law! page 15 Sun is born again in primitive Light With Arian Force In the Spring House of Mars New Life Exploding From cold Winter's Icy dark Womb Gives force to our Wills Time of re-SOL-ution We are born again Juices of Spring wash us from Winter Womb As Spring buds push out We drop from Her belly Like damp, new born colts This is the time to re-SOL-ve our new lives With Nature's Forces Supporting and healing As Old Winter dies